I love looking for patterns. I think every human being likes to do this- patterns are sort of comforting, give one a feeling of “been there, done that”, so I can handle it, and give us the ability to accept change in a way. Most of us are wary of change.

At this time, in my life, I am contemplating a major change. I am resigning from my very lucrative job and planning to move into a new phase of my life. A new life, where I hope to be a student once more- 14 years since I last was a student and more than 30 years since I have sat in a classroom and was taught by people who knew better. The only difference is me- I have changed- at 48, I will probably be the oldest in my class. I am grateful that some of the colleges I applied to considered me “young” enough and pliable enough to give me a chance to learn along with youngsters. Now that I think of it, I might be in class with students who are my daughters’ age. I think I am mentally prepared for the change.

During this change, the only pattern I can figure out is that I have always been a risk taker. I can take decisions – major decisions on my own and am willing to face the consequences of my decisions. I don’t know what the future holds for me- that is another pattern but I know who holds my future and I am content in that pattern.

22 thoughts on “Patterns

  1. “I don’t know what the future holds for me- that is another pattern but I know who holds my future and I am content in that pattern.” Love that Susie!!! It is so true. When you are studying hard that is a wonderful thing to hang on to.
    You will do great in this next phase of your life. It sounds exciting!

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  2. Cheers to you … it is difficult to return to school after so many years away from it. Hard to tackle the books and write the papers after being used to having “me time” after a long day at work or enjoying your weekend. I know my friend who is in grad school (that I mentioned to you) finished exams yesterday – she said it is exhausting, trying to have the energy to learn and absorb new things after such a long lapse … but she is 61 and you are younger, so go forth and take this leap of faith Susie.


    1. Thanks Linda. It is a leap of faith. Everyone around me who knows is dissuading me but my heart tells me go for it.
      It will be difficult but maybe I will like it.
      Your friend is an inspiration.

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  3. I’m so excited for you Susie. It takes courage and a whole load of determination to decide to make a change when you get past your twenties – for some reason we fear ‘what might happen’ …. when perhaps we should be excited about what might happen!

    I think you’re amazing. You go for it! You’re going to make this work, I can feel it.
    Sending you love and squidges ~ Cobs. xxx


    1. Dear Cobs,
      Thank you for the encouragement. Did you have a good party and get together for the anniversary yet ?
      I am determined to make the change because I have been ” drawn( hurt), hanged ( insulted) and quartered( snubbed) for want of a “Western” education. It made me, a woman from a third world country be determined to be there and do that even if it cost the earth and I had to go to the ends of the earth to do it. Thank you for everything, Cobs.
      God bless !

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  4. You are much braver than I am, Susie! It is even hard for me to retire when I am at an age and place in life when it is not only acceptable but expected! Good for you. I’m excited about your new venture. When I do retire I plan to take some classes at our local university. -Molly


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