Loveuary

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I often wonder how falling in love might have been because for me that experience has never happened. The music playing in the background, the flowers, the courting, the songs, the looking into each other’s eyes in their depths and fathoming the degree of love he had for me- nope- I have never felt it.

I am married for 25 years to the same man- this year is our 25th wedding anniversary. I had an arranged marriage and over the years I have gradually grown to love the man. When I talk about my arranged marriage to my colleagues, they give me looks like how is this possible. Can they really be in love ? Are they just pretending ? Can two people who are so un-like even live together for 25 years ?

But it has happened. I must confess, many are the times I have wanted to run away from this marriage or to call it quits. The only reason we are together to this day is my husband and his unwavering faith in our marriage and his love.

For he has had that magical experience of falling in love. He says he fell in love with me about 5 years before I knew even he existed. He studied in my college and was an intern when I was a first year medical student of 17. He might have been about 24 years when he saw me first- I cannot remember this incident but he gave me a tuberculin test as part of a research project ( not a very romantic setting, I know) but he says he fell in love with me, the minute I asked him, What are you doing this for?”

Years passed-the year was 1989- I was a year 4 medical student and one day a curly haired post graduate student hailed me as I was walking past the emergency department of our hospital. He had met his cousin during his vacation who happened to be married to one of my relatives. That cousin of his  mentioned that she had met me during the summer too. And he thought that some sort of marriage proposal was going on. He tells me later that he doesn’t know what made him impulsive enough to call out to me that day. I said hello and we talked for a few seconds and then he says, well, what do you think ? I said, About what ?” ( I had no idea what he was talking about).

Then he says, ” About our marriage- are you willing to get married to me ?”

Taken entirely by surprise, I said, ” Who do you think you are and what do I know about you that I can say anything to you ?” I was mortified that someone would dare assume that I was available when I was still a student. Embarrassed he went away.

And again years passed. We tried our best to avoid meeting each other and avoided one another’s units in hospital- this was more or less successful for I saw him less than two times over the next two years.

In 1992, after I passed out and got home to work as a doctor, my father went to meet his family for an official engagement. During that time, he happened to find out that this family was the same family to which the guy who had proposed me two years back belonged. He came back home and told my mum and me about them. I wanted to get out of the deal as soon  as I heard about this considering our past history but as fate would have it, everything worked out in his favor because my father liked him a lot. We got married to the greatest surprise of a lot of people, myself included.

February seems a good month to remember old tales and how we got together- more than love, if you ask me, what holds us together is the fact that we can’t imagine a life without one another- I guess we need each other to survive. Is that love, I am not sure but I still do not hear music nor do I get flowers or candies on Valentine’s day but there is a glue that is stronger than all that stuff that holds us together and that I think is ample evidence of the dictum that “marriages and love are made in heaven”.

 

 

 

20 thoughts on “Loveuary

  1. My parents had a similar situation, in that Pops knew of mum before the proposal, but she didn’t have a clue who he was. They lived in the same small village, but as my Nanaji (mum’s dad) believed in education so strongly, mum went to a boarding school in Kenya, then to the UK for university.
    Once the proposal happened and both families accepted, the love developed, and after over 40 years together, they are so strong! ❤

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      1. I really think it is dependant to the couple, but arranged marriages seemed to be very good.. because of the compatibility that was taken into consideration first! Though they were not always right of course!
        I couldn’t say which one was better!

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  2. Wow Susie, what a fascinating story…in some ways it seems that even though you didn’t think so, the Universe was determined to get you two together! “They” often say there’s always one who loves more than the other…maybe so. I’m glad that you have grown to love your husband. Congratulations on becoming a Doctor too!! Happy 25th Anniversary, whenever you may be celebrating it this year!!
    Deb

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    1. In September. There comes a time when you can’t live without that person- its like that song in My Fair Lady- you have grown accustomed to his/her face and his various attributes, including even the things that used to irritate you when you first started off.
      Susie

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      1. My parents anniversary is Sept. 13 and my birthday is the 28! What a lovely month for a celebration. 😉
        I love how you equate it to that song, and I’m happy for you that it has grown into a warm, comfortable love! xo

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