Last night I couldn’t sleep very well. I woke up with a start at around 3 am and couldn’t get back to sleep after. I woke up in a cold sweat and the temperature around me was around 16 C. Thinking back on the events of the day I realized that my sensitive soul(sic) was reacting to some work related events, with my office bully colleague. Whenever I have a problem handling people, I spend a lot of time analyzing my reactions to what the person said, and how I could have told them off and things like that- its always a post-mortem of how things could have gone better.
Consequently today I had a migraine, one of those slow, dragging types and I have drugged myself with a single tablet of Paracetamol, drinking plenty of water and even managing some sleep, under my desk during my lunch hour.
A few minutes back, the work bully was back in my room and trying to get me to do some task that she wanted me to do. I was surprised at my own reaction to her demand. I said, ” No, I am not doing it.” The look of shock on her face was a sight to behold. I was smiling ( perhaps its the Paracetamol) making me behave crazy but I did it- I said ” No” and I am feeling so proud of myself.
Small victories are so sweet .
Have you had difficulty saying “No” ?
And when you do, do you feel like you have achieved something great ?
Do you need to fortify yourself with something- a stimulant or so, to be able to say “No” ?