I have been back-reading through my various posts over the last year and find that most of them are of the ranting, whining type. I am healthy, have a job, have a good family ( have always had one), have loving people in my life, no addictions ( except perhaps food), am intelligent( at least, I like to think so) and have many things going my way. Yet, most of my posts seem dissatisfied and seem to illustrate a body, unsatisfied with self.
And it is true. Most of the time, I am unhappy with myself and who I am. But why ?
Anyway, today’s post is about something wonderful that happened to me a few years back- nothing short of a miracle. And again this took place at my workplace.
For days and even months, a senior colleague of mine was harassing me. Nothing to face, of course but behind my back. I could hear loud conversations from my neighbor’s room ( I like to think they were purposely loud, so I could hear), about people (me)who sucked up to the consultants and other people who came to make changes in our unit. The place I worked in was thought to be not giving as satisfactory services as they should . The services provided by the department being next-to- nil, in spite of a full set of about 10 qualified individuals working there, two or three doctors among them, a bio-statistician and a some data entry people, was mostly inadequate. Complaints were rife that proposals were delayed in approvals and approvals were provided for some and not for others and so much more. A research ethics committee functioned which was like a committee of members who had been serving like for ever – none of us knew what went on there, except for one office administrator ( who was a member of that committee, self-appointed) and the bio statistician ( for good measure, it seems). My neighbor was the bio-statistician colleague, who was loud and uncouth, specially when he thought someone was not going to be doing things as he planned. Things got to such a head that I hated going to work- even wanting to put an end to everything and leave or die. ( yes, thoughts of killing myself did come into my mind).
The heads of the organization brought in a couple of staff, who had experience in research administration, in order to set things right. The man arrived one day, took stock of affairs and started a process of strategic planning. Strategic planning is like a step wise process of taking stock, finding out where we are and finding out what we could do. Needless to say, the people in my unit, who liked the old order tried every possible stunt to get him out. There were arguments, table thumping, yelling, shouting matches, derision( yes, all this took place in the office environment) but finally, the consultant wrote a report about the unruly employees, who would not allow progress to happen, to the higher authorities. The higher authorities took action and wrote up a termination order for the statistician but in time, he managed to get a transfer order to another department.
This colleague was not allowing progress to take place, except as it benefited him, even resorting to bullying tactics to get his way. I am not sure how the higher authorities got a whiff of affairs and appointed this consultant to clean things up.
My point is this :
- How did the authorities bring this Consultant to take charge of things in my department, just when things were completely out of control and finances, decisions, ethics and a lot of other things had been through out of the window ?
- How was the bully statistician shown the door?
I have come to believe that God brought the Consultant to my department as an angel in disguise to “save” us distressed souls or at least mine from unscrupulous colleagues, who were a pain to work with. Sometimes we tend to give up in life, thinking everything is lost but along comes an angel and we may not even recognize him/her, who gives us a helping hand. Sometimes we think nothing good ever happens to us but it could be that we need to wait and watch till that good time.