Waking up in the morning ( 4 a.m) is a habit with me- I wake up with the morning call of the muezzin. It is difficult and I often wish I could have an extra hour in bed, but this is not to be. I wake up this early in order to make a hot breakfast and a hot lunch( which will be eaten cold) and pack lunches for people who need it to eat in school or at work. All this will take about an hour of cooking and readying time.
This morning I woke up as usual but with so much of grogginess, it was as if some one had driven a stone into my head. Heaviness, stoniness——— but went through the entire breakfast-lunch routine as though there was nothing wrong.
After the early morning travelers left home with their breakfasts inside them and their lunches in their bags or hands, I decided to watch some TV until some more of lunch got made and until it was time for me to go to work. An hour later, found me propped in front of the TV, not watching but wishing there was some way I could go later to work.
I made some maca powder drink, sweetening it up for good measure( plain maca makes me puke) but things didn’t get much better.
Finally I sent an email to my supervisor and told her I would be late in to work, as I had not had enough sleep. Then I went back to bed trying to catch up on some shut-eye, so I could be fresh for work.
I think I managed to sleep for about 45 minutes before I had a bladder call. That woke me up but the grogginess remained. I couldn’t get back to sleep, so decided to shower. After the shower, the grogginess continued and finally I forced myself to drive to work, late and groggy as ever.
What is wrong ?
Is it my menopause or age catching up with me ?
Is it some sort of stress ?
Or am I just depressed ?