Weighed myself this morning and the scales show me tipping them at 90 kgs. Now that is a lot of weight for a woman to carry around. The funny thing is, when I look in the mirror, I can’t see where all the 90 kgs is stored on me.
I don’t think my cheeks are any rounder nor my chin. My neck is as thin as it should be and there are no extra folds of skin that I can see. Now where is all that fat on me ?
The only way I know I am fat and have gained a lot of weight is because my clothes don’t fit me any more. I have needed new tops because the old ones are a little tight around the arms.
For some reason I tend to put on weight on my hands and my wrists and perhaps even my tummy and my back. So I had new blouses and tops – I consoled myself saying, I needed the new clothes because I am working once again and need to look good. Its not like when I was staying at home- people look at you and I need people to admire me .
And then my preferences starting changing I have started recently to like wearing trousers with elastic holding them up- no more do I love those with hooks or buttons or zippers- they are totally out of date. I have invested in new “tights”, loose trousers which can be tied up in the middle and so on but elastic is my new friend.
And so this morning, I stand at 90 kgs.
I need to bring some accountability into my life. I have indulged in some sweets, well, on occasion. I thought no one would know. The sad thing is my body knows and it shows it- on the weighing scale.
Also my sedentary job is not so good for my behind, it seems to be making it more round and ample.
Now I have a few resolutions and I am enlisting support from my online community to help me keep them.
- Eat healthy- ( if possible) at all times.
- Ignore hunger pangs- ( at least sometimes)- after all your 16 year old daughter does it so very well on her school days.
- Look away and say no to sweets- my number one enemy.
4. And next in line but very importantly, start moving. Try to move at least two rounds around my university every hour. That should be enough of exercise to keep me moving through the day.
5. Stop worrying about things outside my control- I have a habit of pathologically worrying about my weight and I have been doing things ever since I can remember – maybe, since my 10th year.
I am sure the worry itself is fattening.
6. And last but not the least, keep up with my resolutions- I am victim to another not-so-good habit and that is back tracking- when things don’t go my way- I give up. I need to keep going on.
Hopefully by the end of August, I will be 2 kgs down- and the scales will show a 88kgs.
Is it wishful thinking ? Share your thoughts- can I do it ?